Man, I haven't written in such a long time. But it's hard to find time to write when so much life happens all at once. I guess I got what I asked for. I had once said that it might be easier for me to have all my stress in one big splatter ball rather than a ton of smaller ones. Don't ever ask for it. Don't even utter it under your breath or think it.

My new sense of self-esteem has been doing me wonders. I discovered that with my new confidence mixed with a touch of make-up, a sundress (Yes, I actually own a few dresses and a couple skirts. Shocking isn't it?!), and a throw that all into a trip to the Home Depot.... yeah. It's really not about turning heads, though it makes me smile, it's about knowing that I am beautiful and not sticking within my comfort shell. Plus I learned that dressing and acting a little more girly isn't all that bad. It has it's perks.

Taking time for myself is a rarity. Heck, the only down time I ever get is after the kids are in bed. Sadly, I miss being able to tuck in my entire family into bed. I miss having my family together. It's like being a single parent with perks most days.But most of it I wouldn't trade. I get to raise my babies instead of a stranger and never miss out on those special moments. And thank God that my husband still has a job. I just wish that it kept him closer to home.

So a little caught up on things now. My daughter is excited for school to start. Having just me and my tubby home will be interesting and a fun new adventure. I think it's about time I enjoyed life a bit and went on more adventures. Either way, it's my turn at life.